This week has been sort of a hodgepodge of “MyLife” as in Denise Mira, mom, wife, minister, home schooler, human being
you get the picture. Nothing too exciting or out of the ordinary…stomach bug, community board stuff, Bible and prayer, teaching prep, dinner with friends, grocery shopping, date with hubby (that was lotsa’ fun!) and all the normal stuff moms do.
My week really got off to a roaring start on Sunday evening with a last-minute invitation my boys received to go to the beach with friends on Monday. Sounds easy enough, right? sigh. (now you get to see how human I really am)
Their family is on Spring break, so they were in ‘vacation mode’, anticipating their next 7 days of freedom! We’ve had so much fun lately with all sorts of wonderful house guests and field trips (including a beach day) and days off school that I immediately thought: “Simple. NO”. We are not on Spring break this week. We must be productive. (Matter of fact, we had plans to head out of town in 11 days for my assistant’s wedding in Washington, so a beach day was not happening because that will be our Spring break.) This mom knows that to shift gears and take kids out of ’school mode’ into vacation mode, back into ’school mode’ the next day is not an easy feat and I didn’t want a fight
if you get my drift. My kids were in shock. They knew the beach day was a perfect plan (sunny weather was predicted!) and they could not believe I was considering a ‘no’ to the whole idea. Kids are very convincing, especially when Mom is tired, Daddy’s out of town all weekend and it’s late Sunday night….
So began (unbeknownst to the children) my double-minded self-introspection which lasted for approximately 12 hours. Daddy phoned that night to check in, prayed with me and we decided…nothing, really, although he was happy to have them home safe with Momma-but whatever I wanted he would support. AH! The ball was officially in my court. So I stewed. Tossed and turned and thunk.
It was perfect weather. But it takes 2 hours to drive there. Would I be at peace, since I’m not now?
Perhaps I’m being legalistic.
Friends can’t always go to the beach.
I really needed to study for my upcoming conference, so the house would be really quiet if they did go to the beach.
I could flip a coin.
Can anyone relate?!??! I called a couple friends because I really truly could not decide and I needed to talk about it. Was I just being emotional? Argh.
What I really appreciated was that neither of my friends tried to convince me of a decision. They listened intently as I talked, which was what I needed the most. They reminded me of what I already believed. God’s truth, common sense, yada yada. One prayed for me. I really needed their friendship. I even broke into tears at one point, which felt kind of dumb considering this was just a day trip. But sometimes we’re wrestling inside, feeling emotional, a little irrational and God made friends for just such a moment!
I went with my gut. They stayed home, got loads done, the house was clean for Daddy’s arrival and I bought them dinner out at their favorite Taqueria. It was PEACE. Thank you Jesus.
Now I’m staring Sunday in the face once again and here comes another week…